Notes: Is the fourth installment in my series Rainbow
Rainbow Ch. 2 why is love so hard to find
Ryo was exhausted’ two back to back concert tours in a row. He was nearly ready to pass out from exhaustion. Why did Johnny think he could handle two bands? They just announced another drama that he would be apart of. Some days he was too tired to move…
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
His phone beeped with a message.
I heard about the drama good luck! ;)
You must be tired.
I’ll try to make a K8 con this summer. Promise!
If you are ever too tired to go back to Osaka or I’m closer to where you are feel free to crash here. You know you my door is always open.
I’m proud of you!
PS. Come over for dinner sometime.
He laughed. How did Pi know to text him when he needed it most?
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
He started to relax. Sleeping over at Pi’s was fun. It was small but comfortable. He didn’t mind having to split the futon. It saved space….
Ryo blushed slightly; Yamapi was really warm…sometimes he couldn’t help curling up close to Pi’s warmth. They had always been close…but lately his dreams had been getting confusing. He’d often fall asleep thinking about Yamapi and wake up uncomfortably hard with no memory of what he dreamed. He shifted nervously on the bed, he didn’t want to get up yet. What was he thinking? They were best friends right?
I've been looking for the answer
Had anyone ever cared as much about him as Yamapi had? He was glad they had gotten debuted together. Yamapi was a good leader. He cared about them all and tried his best to be sure they worked together. He liked to make sure to include everyone. He was good friend…Yamapi meant more to him then anyone.
I couldn't see that it was right there
He glanced at his desk; there was a picture of koyashige as Koyama called himself and Shige and a picture of Ohkura with Yassu. Beside them was himself with Pi, the look on his face was so happy. The emotion in his eyes reminded him of Ohkura. Ohkura said more with his eyes then he did ouloud. When he looked at Yassu you could see how much he cared for the guitarist. He saw that same look in his own eyes when he smiled at Pi. Surely not! He didn’t like Yamapi that way did he? He did like being hugged by his taller friend and he tended to enjoy himself more when they were together.
But now I know what I didn't know
But he couldn’t really love Yamapi like that? He remembered waking up once to find Yamapi’s face so close his own they could have kissed. His flushed at the memory so badly. A part of him wanted to know what Yamapi’s kisses were like.
Because you live and breathe
Yamapi’s friendship meant the world to him. He was afraid asking for more. They had promised to always be friend. Could they do that if he admitted how he was starting to feel? Yamapi had always told him he could do anything he wanted. When he brought up dropping out of high school Yamapi listened to all his reasons why before saying he should do what was best for himself. He remembered how sad Yamapi seemed that day but even if his friend didn’t agree with he had had his support. HE was considering going back to school just to finish. He didn’t like being the only one in NEWS not to graduate. He wasn’t stupid; he dropped out because the stress of being a Johnny was too much. He didn’t want to leave the company; he had to eliminate one or the other. His parents had been furious, embarrassed even. Kanjani 8 had shrugged. Koyama had been furious and accused him of being a bad example. Yamapi had stepped in saying that Ryo had had to decide what was best for himself. Yamapi had always said that he could do anything if wanted to. He had made his own place in the Kanto branch of the Jumisho. He had fans from both regions. If it were for Pi he might have quit.
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Yamapi’s friendship always made everything brighter and happier. Because you live,
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Being friends with someone adored by their sempais had opened more doors. It wasn’t uncommon for his to go somewhere and find Arashi, KAT-TUN or Tackey and Tsubasa gad to see him. He was considered a member of the PIN army; one of the elite Johnnys.
It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
Before Yamapi JE had been a job…now it was more of a family He had a place to belong…friends who cared yet Pi stood out from the rest.
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
No matter what Yamapi had always been there, when he was lonely, tired or scared Yamapi always knew. Even when he lashed out Yamapi took it in stride and didn’t let his angry, hurtful words bother him. Yamapi was his best friend…
Who was there when all my hopes fell
Something about his friend always made him want to try harder. He maybe and outsider but that didn’t matter. He could make his own way and find the path he was meant to take. He always wanted Yamapi beside him…
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes
Because you live and breathe
No matter what because he had Yamapi as a friend he didn’t like to disappoint him. He always tried to work hard so could hear Yamapi praising him and calling him his best friend. Those words always meant a lot. Someday maybe he could show Pi how much it meant to be his friend. Me wished he meant as much to pi as Pi meant to him.
Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live, I live, I live
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